everything i see is a facet of me

ive decided to no longer provide edicts or guidelines -- lessons or advice --i am not qualified

ive decided to devote my attention to god, to praise and worship and surrender to the will of the divine

ive also decided to take a stance of opposition on the commercial sex industry

what i learned this past week:

a lesson on transferring powerpoint presentations with video via USB

dancing is for now not for later

to take it easy, i am here -- the urge to 'improve' was so strong -- the urge to attach. its all here.

it is disingenuous to feign (anything) -- self deprecation -- for (guilt) -- or fear of confidence being confused for arrogance and neuroses -- for fear of self

what i want and what i dont want

what i was calling into my own understanding -- fanciful stories of what has been happening around
me, revealed to be illusory as are they all

it is impossible to act in a way that 'best reflects character' -- when it is impossible

i should leave my cell phones in the car

i dont need more than one cell phone

im going to burning man

to not speak of myself -- such a strange habit, telling people about what your doing or what your thinking --  a frivolous use of words

what it means to litter words -- what it means to not keep thought in god -- what it means to habitually conform to each interaction

light is needed to maintain the balance -- higher vibrations -- forgiveness and gratitude and service and faith

i talk about a course in miracles like other people talk about juicing

im going to start juicing --

facebook hypnotized me -- im going to stay away from it -- eulogize yourself -- lol

every once in a while a purge is needed

All this time

The future doesn't exist.
Nothing more than a complex system of thoughts. Who wants to think about something so silly?  I am.


I've been thinking of separation and I dont think its the right way to go, gotta keep it P & P... The notion of self improvement, the stories, rituals and tribe mind...whatever


Talk about love, talk about love, talk about love. My buddy Ash posted on the inter-webs wisdom from Mooji about that earlier. "Who wants to read yesterday's news?'


Keeping my mind in the divine, keeping my heart in truth, understanding the story.
I surrender.

For an illusion

The liberation from Samsara - suffering, has its tools...

Prayer, Yoga, Mantras, Meditation (never seen Alan Watts talk before!), Self Inquiry, athletic disciplines, coursework, religious studies and others I've missed.

Commit to seeing.
Commit to truth.

To be no longer committed to the story in ones day or life
I was talking to my friend Alberta about this feeling yesterday and the stone Buddha came to mind :-)  To know conditioning is itself illusory and it must be navigated through is a trip

Total trip.

Though any Guru would say it only 'must be navigated though' because one believes that to be true

Even as Krishna or Christ would say - become devoted to me to attain salvation
Maybe thats the short cut

Love!

Plugging In

Conditioning.

It seems like catching moments of lucidity comes through breaks in the nature of being thoughts vs observing them, blustering out thoughts. Almost like trying capture a transmission from the divine frequency (I really dont want to say: "forgetting that your the tower" but I do cause Im laughing as Im typing this.) Words seldom communicate like most symbols, I think this blog is really just getting what I scribble in my book

Had this thought earlier amidst other scribblings

The fear of abandoning ego is so strong there is need for serious inquiry.
The fear of abandoning ego is so strong there is need for serious inquiry.

The obstinance to refuse acceptance

What if I do not understand anything I see? To undo conditioning of an 'old paradigm' based in fear and lacking and lack of compassion and tolerance.
My perception is flawed because it draws upon no information to evaluate and gives value to our entire understanding of the world or others in it, god, self or what the "truth" is : The truth of the liberation from suffering


thought patterns
personal beliefs
memories
life experience                                              PERCEPTION GIVES VALUE TO ALL I SEE
social norms
trinkets
religions
relationships

If conditioning need be removed to achieve this space of seeing-like walking around using a map to find your own location- how best to remove conditioning?

Disciplines that connect to divine energies, higher vibration.


Smiling, gratitude, compassion and acceptance

Prayer
Yoga
Meditation                                              TO BE A SPIRITUAL PERSON OR THE SPIRIT ITSELF
Running
Mantras
ACIM


The fear of abandoning ego is so strong there is need for serious inquiry.
The fear of abandoning ego is so strong there is need for serious inquiry.
reminder

 I quit smoking and I'm so grateful!! Your smile is your flag ;-D

Namaste

Do I believe in (how I understood) god?

found myself thinking about god today...

i'm confused,
as to how the word - a symbol made of symbols can cause such a ruckus.

im confused as to where spirituality and religion took sides and god got stuck with the church
im confused,
as to how you believe that
misunderstanding
i'm confused how yoga and god are not one in the same

a westerners perspective, simply - too much bill maher
"who's the fool?" i ask the liberal.
"they have their anger they call faith, and fear they call gods word"
does 'the universe' better suit?
"you've let them steal your connection to the divine"
should I call 'him' Ahura Mazda? the higher self?
"you let them steal the 2000 elections and your lord....that sucks"
how does Krishna feel about that yoga?

i'm confused,
until i turn my all over to the divine
i tell god
self
the all that is
that i surrender all confusion
all illusion of fear and attachments to such symbols

i will be quiet
like a child
until i am confused no longer
until i see through the eyes of Christ
the one true god
...and Allah of course...

surrender sarcasm (sorry) for it is frivolous speech
rejoice, praise the lord and hallelujah!

there they go again...more symbols made of symbols causing a ruckus.

maybe heaven is here all around us.
maybe god is in everything, the same reason it is all so perfect
maybe the divine is too big for these tiny tiny symbols
maybe everything that is fear is not god...