'If' I am not an activist then I dont have a purpose mind-body-ego would tell me...
Been experiencing...been blessed - with plugging in lately. Should I call them transmissions? I tried to explain to a friend of mine these instances and remembered soon after that tried and true paradox: words seldom communicate. I used the example recently to describe how limiting I believe words can be by referencing the word 'god'.
What is that time where listening turns into true understanding and no words heard are ever 'lost'? Where exactly is that space that observes? I wrote on the train this afternoon: Costume, Actor, Human, Child, Mother, Being; how long of an evolution is necessary to remove conditioning?
I was sobered to come to understand all aspects of identity are only thought wrapped in flesh...saddened. I believed my work in service to be divined or destined. What a notion to understand that the hypnosis involves more than one set of lies and illusion: Costume, Actor, Human, Child, Mother, Being.
What happens if I release this perception of self? (I ask my journal...)
I will disappear.
The world will suffer.
I will be judged.
I will be forgotten.
I will have nothing to prove my worth.
I wont make change.
No one will want me.
Brain Tracy, a fantastic author and speaker, once recommended 'thinking on paper'; he is who I think of when truth is shared through sleep like this. Activism is a very strong extortion tool as well as the fear of poverty, though I have never seen it or know what poverty is. (Everything else I do know about! lol) When earlier (in time and on the same sheet of paper) I asked what were my core believe and values, so much of it had to do with service...
What is most important to me in my life? (What a fun perspective...MY life...)
Helping people.
Protecting the innocent.
Abolishing injustice.
Making a difference.
Overcoming obstacles.
Spiritual growth.
My mother, brother and aunt.
Justice and Inspiration
Writing wrongs.
The Mission (Be humble, protect water)
Found a trick to not smoking btw: be that which observes the sensation.
To know there is no work required to be the awareness - and all mediums lead to the simplest of truths - wanting from someone - wanting for someone - not wanting for or from someone - only witnessing - plug into the transmissions - be silent - or call it meditation - everyday
Namaste
