Monday, July 30, 2018

anne hathaway & natalie portman rashida jones


Opening on the same farm I'm at talking to Rasheen

"Look nobodys saying the bronx tale didn't deserve an oscar. Chazz Paleminteri did somethin wonderful there. TV and story lines, the writing have progressed so much. Look at HBOs whole lineup from The Wire to Westworld."

Watching E-Ness V Solomon in the back round smoking rapping along

Later ON Cut to Scene: Analyzing battle - 1st watch Solomon commonly agreed but Ness rounds age better

Rasheen's Ghost

Once Again I'm Here

Its going to be August soon. Two days to be exact. I've got a plan. Again. I don't have any idea how to follow a plan. I don't have any idea how to do much from what I gather. I am confident this month is gonna go well. I don't know why I have confidence. From what I've seen I should be geared up for disappointment. Like, I literally should be planning on disappointment. But, history tells me I wont be disappointed. History tells me I should be planning on it. Maybe that's the plan.

Television is only a small part of it.

The Summer of Discipline


Sunday, July 22, 2018

Not exactly pleasant, not not painful

Just a moment ago I was in India. It was beautiful. Then a rooftop in Los Angeles.

At least when I dream about something and she’s there I have less anxiety. At least in those cases I don’t feel like as much a pariah or total embarrassment. Besides her throwing away my Calvin and Hobbes related items, she was very kind. She seemed to take an interest in why my van went missing and asked questions about my wellbeing. She offered me the pullout mattress under hers after even offering me the hospitality of her home along with her roommates.

Just like always, it was just good to see her and good to know she was doing well, as always.

I’m pulling out the mattress to sleep outside, making small talk on my way out. It seems like the best move and I’m touched that Sarah would even offer me the bed with such limited space.  I make some remark about preferring the outside so I can smoke at my leisure, which is true, though I’m mostly concerned about screwing up something inside.

Roommate: “So what do you do?”
Me: “Basically, what Sarah does if I weren’t as bright and much less talented.”

I thought that was clever. I woke up and tried to shake that feeling off - this doesn’t feel anything like Love. I know what she meant now when she said ‘triggered’.

Monday, July 16, 2018

Pie #51

Mike :-)

I can only sympathize with you brother.

I have heard such tales of the shitty nature of Florida prisons bro. No lie, when I told my mother I was moving to Miami, her whole mood changed. I was so darn confused! Going from an abandoned car and $20 a day to directors chair and $50 G's a year I thought shed be ecstatic. We later had a conversation where she pretty much said: "Florida is nothing but trouble. Its set up for you to get into trouble and when you do get into trouble the system is alot less accommodating than NY and NJ."

I can imagine about the nature of despondency. I dont know that this'll be of any comfort but I stop myself as often as I can and count my blessings as of late. A few of my homies, one I told you about recently - Rasheen, have been taken up to the heavens or away to lockup. Its so important not to take the little (or any) thing(s) for granted!

I couldn't even begin to understand how hard its been for you since your sister passed. I believe most rational people would have lost some will to go on after such a heartbreak. I'm glad to know your gratitude for life is back, I've been struggling with the idea of living FOR my lost loved ones and I hope that notion can bring you a grain of solace.

I was locked up when I was younger. With a penchant for insane outbursts - my past time was fighting with cops in my old suburb of Montclair, NJ. I've mostly done county time, so absolutely not the same type of bid but I kept getting locked up over the span of 8 or so years. All together I've got 5 -6 years locked up. A two year stretch between county and ann klein, a couple 365's in Passaic and Essex counties and one last year in a state run rehab in Paterson. All aggravated assaults + possession of this or that. When everyone met me in Hudson Bay was after I pledged to get my shit together. I did my first cross-trains from a 3/4 house when I started canvassing and I was still on paper :-) If I said it once I'll say it again: One of the best times in my life... in retrospect of course!

Sorry the Facebook password doesn't work...

Loxahatchee is an unincorporated community in Palm Beach County, Florida, United States, located in the areas north of Wellington and west and northwest of Royal Palm Beach and approximately 17 miles (27 km) west of West Palm Beach. Loxahatchee is perhaps the most rural area within proximity to West Palm Beach, with lot sizes ranging from 1-20 acres. Along with The Acreage, it is notable for loose land restrictions and the native and exotic animal presence.

I'm so glad you have your family standing by you! My mom was the only person to write or visit me (outside the 1 or two letters from my ex during the first months of my time in) in all the little time I did inside. Of all the blessings to have its wonderful you still have people that support you - AND WE ALL DO! :-)





Friday, July 13, 2018

Just Checking :-)

Pie #?

Hey Brother - Just a continuation of my response to the last part of your 7/5 letter and whatever going on in my head today. Sending love and light your way!

I have been super lucky in the book department lately. Since the farm Ive been reading The Market Gardener by Jean-Martin Fortier & I'm skimming through Practical Permaculture by Jessi Bloom & Dave Boehnlein. I literally have never found a 'technical' or 'instructional' book tolerable in my ENTIRE life but Jean-Martins book reads so well and Practical Permaculture keeps my attention.
Aside from those I've been amassing books by Sri Mooji, Sri Ramana Maharshi, & Sri Papaji & continue building my Alan Watts collection. Do you enjoy science fiction in particular? My favorite short story book is Black Coffee Blues by Henry Rollins.

I love the farm, & hope / planning to return the same time next year. Actually I just had a conversation with my mother about my plans to return here every six months for the next few years. The farm duties vary day to day but can be described generally as: labor - as were preparing the land for the upcoming sewing & harvest. For example, today I aerated the soil in the greenhouse and fertilized the same area for seeds going in next week. Yesterday I put up trellises (for plants that vine) and helped putting down irrigation. My boss is cool, might as well be a house mate if you know what I mean. The same with the other permanent employees - this place is basically a plot of land owned by a well meaning couple and run by art students turned farmers.

Scandalous activities? lol not really - this place is kinda like an oasis. There's only 5 people who live here permanently, most of which I seldom see, a couple cats, dogs and farm animals but no drama. Well, on my first week I got really shit faced and forgot where the farm was - woke up in one of the local really rich folks horse stables I broke into for whatever reason and had to make my way back being late for work lol. Nobody knows about that, Ill tell them as an anecdote before i leave :-)

Oh yeah, my birthdays Christmas. Between you and me I'll tell you my real / government birth year which is 1981. But in this new climate of "Identity" I've been identifying as a different ages for quite some time now. For work or social situations I round up by 5 every; 5 years. So today I identify as 40 and tell people I was born in whatever year that corresponds. So when I'm actually 40, 41, 42 years old I'll tell folks I'm 45. And so on & so on. If its romantic or a close friendship I identify as 4 and 1/2 - that was about the time I got my trip at Sterling.

Are you hip to whats going on with that recently? You can Identify as anything if you want nowadays, Its AWESOME! I am known only as Humble Pie except for 560 and my mothers house, at my last suit and tie gig I changed my sex and race to 'Pie.' lol :-)

Anywho - I gotta run an errand with my boss Seth in a little so I'm gonna hop off - but I don't have work tomorrow so I'll likely be up later tonight writing. Have a blessed evening until later. love love LOVE!

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

mike #3

Noel,
7/4 Wow brother you've been busy. I'm amazed by your journey as usual. I am sorry the Florida thing didn't work out. You always meet the most interesting people.
Where is this farm your working at? What do they grow there.
When I lived in New Jersey I worked at a flower farm. It was such a cool job. All I had to do was cut flowers and rubber band them together. Needless to say I smoked lots of pot with mexicans.

7/5
Just got back from lunch. Unfortunitly I was caught in the rain. Didn't get to see fireworks yesterday. Thats something I really miss, all the regular people stuff. I don't to come off as a bummer when I write to you but it is goin to happen. I'll try to keep it to a minimum. I really wish there was spell check on this thing.
Have you read any good book lately? I just finished Tolstoy's Anna Karenena. It wasnt that good. I was an interesting insight into 1860's russia. I'm reading a collestion of newly published science ficton short stories. I really enjoy short stories.
I'm still glad to talk to someone in the real worlk other than my family. Thank you again for going through the procedure to communicate with me.
How is the farm? What are your responsibilities? How are the owners? Any drama or scandilus activities? When is your birthday?
Well I'm going to get the letter out to you. If you talk to anyone who i know mention that id live to hear from them and how they can write me.
My physical address is :Lawtey CI
P.O. Box 2000
Lawtey, Fl. 32058

Smile
Always,
Allgood

noel # 3

Hey Mike,

Sorry for the delay, I've been heading to bed earlier which has kinda messed up my rhythm. This letter is a response to your email on the 3rd - I cant tell you how awesome it is to be in touch again :-)

I think I told you in another letter why I'm in Florida and ABSOLUTELY - I'd love to make visit! Send me the visitors form and Ill make sure that happens. Heads up, I don't have a vehicle anymore but I'm sure there's public transit and thanks for the offer to crash with your Mom. Do you need my address? LOX FARMS 1442 E Rd, Loxahatchee, FL 33470-4852

Im stoked to hear about the Water Treatment Certification - that sounds like an awesome opportunity. You cant beat having something to do with your time that'll have clear benefits when your out. I know its a moot point but that trouble shit is for the birds. I can imagine this may sound like an asshole thing to say but the time your doing now is going to be a distant memory later on.

I got in touch with Phil Bossert - Im sure he'll catch up with Christian and some other of the Fam to holler at you. Access your facebook? Totally! Let me know your login and I can forward you all the messages possible :-)

Bro, if you have anything I MEAN ANYTHING you want to get off your chest please don't think you'll be any kind of burden, that's not what brothers are for. If your feeling like you want to vent about your time/current situation no subject is taboo with me. I'm glad to hear your retaining hope and looking toward progress. My time inside was one of the most cherished experiences in retrospect.  The life I dreamed about I actually got and I'm sure the same is coming for you so remember to dream big - You got the whole world coming your way.

love love LOVE!


mike #2

Noel,

Thanks so much for writting. I sometimes feel so alianated from the world beause i have veru little means to get in contat with people. My mom is trying to track own a few people but its very hard for her.
What brings you to forida? I'm glad that you have came and id like to send you a visitation form. I understand that you are very far from wher I am. If you are able to come see me I'd be very thankful. Also I know that my mom would let you stay at her place so you didn't have to make the trip in one day. 

It is good to hear that you stay in contact with so many of our old friends. Like you said I consider them family. I am happy to hear that most are doing so well.

I am working towards getting a certificate to work in water treatment. It will take me a few years to complete because I'll need 5000 hours of training. I have nothinig but time though. the most improtand thing is that i dont get into any trouble because I can't do this program anywhere else and if I go to confinment from here I'll be moved to another camp. I'm trying to look at everything I can as an oppertunity.

I still dont know how to spell and this computer ting does not have any spell check system. Sorry.

Please feel free to write me as much as you can. I'll always reply. Also if Sara or anyone else want to write me let them now how.

Can you access my facebook? 

I have to write in 15 min intervals so please excuse the brevity of my letters. I miss you so much and will write more later. 

Ok I'm back, I have so many things that i could say about how unhappy I am or about the many things that I dislike about my current situation. I will not bring you down with complaints and i will close this letter by teling you that I retain hope. I work toward progress and I will perserviere and be a better person coming out of this. 

Once more I miss you my friend,
So muh love
always,
Allgood

Friday, July 6, 2018

protecting, proving hiding defending

How did you end up not serving?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NsykK5sAWg

The Little Hours Ingrid Goes West Wind River It Comes at Night The Lost City of Z I Don't Feel at Home in This World Anymore Good Time Lady Bird Brigsby Bear Logan Lucky
A Ghost Story Patti Cake$ Brawl in Cell Block 99

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

Spanish phrases by day #1

¿Cómo puedo ayudar? ¿Podría ayudarle?
How can I help?

Me disculpo porque mi español no es muy bueno
I apologize my Spanish is not very good

¿Que cuentas? 
What’s up?

¿Qué estás haciendo? ¿Qué haces?
 What are you doing?

Voy a hacer algunas compras de comida
I am going to do some food shopping

me encanta la música
I love music

¿Hay algún trabajo / chamba para mí?
Is there any work for me?

Podrías hablar más lento por favor, todavía estoy aprendiendo español
Could you speak slower please, I am still learning Spanish

agradecido a dios
grateful to god 

What time do we start work?
¿A qué hora empezamos a trabajar?

No entiendo 
I don’t understand!

¿Cómo te ha ido?  
How’ve you been?


viajo mucho
I travel alot

My family lives in the US
Mi familia vive en los Estados Unidos

 ¡Oiga! 
Excuse me

voy a trabajar en una granja
I am going to work on a farm

soy un granjero
I am a farmer

¿Me puedes comprar una cerveza?
Can you buy me a beer

tengo muy poco dinero
I have very little money

Me gustaría arroz y frijoles
I would like rice and beans

¿estás casada?
are you married?
no estoy casado 

estoy visitando a un amigo
I am visiting a friend

¡Qué roche!
What a shame! What a bummer!

Dollar - Sol / Luca

Pe, no sé
Well, I don’t know.

pitri mitri
Awesome

Tono 
 Fiesta

hagamos chancha 
Split the bill

Es mi pata
Hes my pal

la firme — true
achorado — defiant
los vidrios — see you
chamba — work
Pata — bro/dude
chompa — jacket
figureti — show off

Monday, July 2, 2018

Today is the day the adventure begins, though the line the boy is in seems to be moving slow.

On this spring afternoon, the village is filled for an occasion such as this. Old maids and merchants are passively ringing bells to sell provisions for those about to enter the mountain. Men, maidens and children walk past all those walking into the birth, as it was called, the doorway everyone was here for. The boys vision was trained on the birth and the dozens of teams walking through its triangular entrance.

The Village, of which the boy did not know the name, was calming despite the occasion. Like a small place's annual pumpkin festival (population 200) the boy couldn't count all the adventurers in a lifetime.

The mountain was a (strong mans) stones throw away and despite its other worldly size, also had a calming effect. To the boys right, the inviting/foreboding/inciting mountain seemed like a airport gate.

A more beautiful day the boy could not have imagined and he was grateful for that. He was standing on a tree trunk the height of a large dogs back separated from the log in front and behind by a another till seeming infinity. The line of tree trunks must have been there forever, the boy thought. The top of his trunk was worn to a seeming polish. The boy couldn't make the face or features of any other of those in line, only that the trunks and those standing in line curved behind him and dissipated into the forest behind him.

The line to his left was a mirror image of his own, thought he couldn't make out anyone, he could tell they looked prepared. At that moment the boy wasn't just grateful, he was elated. With no recollection of waiting aside for the past few moments, he could only surmise the millions of folks behind him may be waiting for a while, but he gave that little thought - he was getting close to the village entrance. 

A wooden entryway & awning with a banner and flags was ahead, person-ed on both sides with folks of this nature and that. Folks with clipboards and one or two almost a soldier-esqe looking folk, all aiding in the ushering of this glorious day. 

Suddenly, as the boy was thinking there would be a few more logs/spaces to go - the boy was already steeping off the last stump towards the entrance, now was the time to choose his mates.

Already waiting was a man who was best described as a Giant. The boy and he conversed about what would be the best weapon for the Giant to choose before they all set out on their adventure. 

"what about this sword?"
"what about a huge hammer?"
"if one took that tree limb - perhaps one could turn that into a hammer..."
"sounds like a great idea, who is to be our third?"

The boy looks behind him. For the first time he can see someone standing on the stumps behind him.
A brown bear who instantly recognizes the teams union. Skipping more than a few spaces the bear is with Giant and Boy under the village entryway registering their trio before the adventure. 

"glad to have you on board, the Boy and Giant say in unison, what are you gonna choose?"

armor pants
cooler for tomatos
backpack 
portal / kitchen / dissapear













Hey! My brother Allgood! Its so so so so so so so awesome to be in touch! and ALL APOLOGIES for the delay. I would have emailed you sooner but am still kinda silly with my earnings and time lol. Now that we're connected by more than spirit, my next pay is Friday (29th) & I'll stock up on stamps. Its been a little fast paced relocating here but I'm darn grateful to be in touch!! I usually don't like to / never like to say that I miss people ... but brother : I MISS YOU so f-ing much.

Also, please don't think I've ever felt any kinda way about you getting hemmed up - I will never have anything but love, admiration and support for you. You know that about me just like I know that about you. I know your heart + what kind of amazing man / friend / leader you are. Trust that I get that the Universe / Lord makes no mistakes: One cant plant seeds without first getting ones hands dirty, right?  :-)

I'm glad to hear the joint ain't getting you down. Rest assured there will never be anything so busy in that we wont stay in touch now that I have access to you; Thank the Lord!

Yeah, me and Von Alt have been in contact. I saw her recently not long before I left Cleveland she passed through and hung out for bit -- She bought a house there!!! (Wit her rich non profit ass lol) I JUST missed Christian (Phil told me as I passed through the Cuse on my way to FL, he was coming a few days later) but I see him and Mallory on Instagram from time to time on the West. Bossert just went back to work for the Parks department after the season off...wow, I feel you, so many names, we got alot of Family!




Allgood from this day forward
you will also be known as
Lucky Commander







Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm– Winston Churchill quote.

6/24 - A Week After Pops Birthday - Letter to Allgood

Hey Mike!

Sending much love to you and ALL APOLOGIES for my delay in writing. I recently moved from Ohio (Cleveland) to Florida (Loxahatchee) and things been a little hectic to say the least. I looked through our last correspondence to see where we last spoke and I'm pretty sure its when I was couch-surfing and working construction in the 216. I've been blessed since then, praise Jah, landing on my feet - trying to be a better servant/better man since.

Ill catch you up :-) :
Worked in Cleveland for a little over a year with the same people, but didn't save a dime - though I learned alot. After that I moved a few blocks away to my best bro Stevens spot, an abandoned car outside a bodega. Technically we were doing nighttime security for a car lot also & he worked the bodega doing stock boy stuff during the day, but I really wanted to help my dude Steve ride out the winter not being alone and I wasn't ready to leave Cleveland as of that time. Steven is a little older and doesn't really have family like that and is a good older cat to learn from. Him and I rode out the winter and I got pretty deep / known the neighborhood we were in Made family with all the folks around (metal scrappers, drunks, crack heads, dealers, hookers, etc) and started making a plan to find a job job (back in activism) around April. I also worked a simple gig through most of winter with an awesome Arabic dude, Isiah, who held me down - making $20 a day for driving his van and doing deliveries (of anything he could flip - vegetables, paper towels, ebt receipt paper). Very sweet dude.

The neighborhood we were in was great, alot of people helped me and Steve with food, blankets and there are at least 4 churches in a 4 block radius so there was often free food, provisions etc. Also a rec center 2 blocks away for a shower. Me and some other cats would panhandle by the store so life was good as we had the drinking spot right by the cars we watched where people would stop by all the time to have a beer and kick it. We called it the Office :-)

So I got to job hunting around the beginning of this year... and Thank the lord!, I was blessed with an opportunity after all the interviews in Florida. Some new canvass operation (New Florida Majority) hired me to take over an office in Miami. Isiah sold me his Ford f-250 van and with a small loan from my folks I bought it and drove down to Florida with an acquaintance of mine Scott.

The New Florida Majority gig had a two week training in DC so I left the Van with Scott (to sleep in / watch) till I got back from Washington. The following is what happened that first week

Monday - Got to training, same old same old - but a little more elementary than I'm used to.
Tuesday - Got a call my best friend Rasheen was killed Monday. If there was one person I had as a best friend in Cleveland it was him. When I had a house he lived around the corner and we would see hang out every day. I took that day off.
Wednesday - Got in to training late and had a very 'blah' day. I wasn't so into it.
Thursday - Same ol, same ol.
Friday - Friday evening I got a call from Scotts Mom that the van was stolen back in Florida. I went on a bender later that evening and stayed out all night.
Saturday - I Brought this house-less dude I was hanging Friday with into training Saturday to the chagrin of many of my bosses. (We had free food - how could I resist? :-) I also let him come back to our collective air BNB  to take a shower and chill for a little bit.
Sunday - Boss calls me saying my coworkers were bent out of shape about my company and we would talk on Monday.
Monday - They let me go / I made new plans to be at the farm Im at now. That was May 7th.
I went on a bender for the whole next week and arrived at the farm Sunday May 13th - been there ever since.

Whew! So I guess your all caught up when it comes to where Ive been.

The farm is awesome- positive people in a wonderful setting. Im hoping to get to Peru in November and work a farm there for 6 months before I return. I bought a ticket and hoping to save enough between now and then so I can afford my return ticket around May 2019. Seems silly to make plans considering the Universe is gonna decide for me anyway lol